I thought that by giving myself some nice summer time off from any racing commitments I would feel relaxed and happy but instead I find myself very paranoid and worried. The way I felt in this photo while being taught how to drive the dinghy by captain Dan in BVI.
I'm worried I am changing into a non-competitive, couch potato like person. Someone that I never saw myself being. The kind of person who doesn't get excited about improving upon their PRs or getting in the best shape they possibly can.
It's hard not having a plan. I'm not used to this. I've had some plan or another for the past 10 years in a row. I may have taken a week at the most off but not two months. This is killing me.
At the same time I'm not even sure of what I want to plan for when I finally do allow myself to plan for another event. I'm hoping something will spark my interest and get me all excited and motivated. I keep thinking how fun it would be to train for a TRI but the winter is on the way and what good will that do? I think about training for a winter marathon as well. That's a possibility. Whatever it is I plan must meet the following short list:
- Healthy for the body
- Heart must be into it 100%